Thank You Lord

Thy great salvation so rich and free.

Could never have done it without you
Thank You for the strength.

Mmm Hmm

I’ve passed my EOS resit. But I’m not as happy as I thought  I’d be. It would have been better if we all made it through together.

Stay strong, my friends.

*hugs*

Public Announcement

Hello everyone.

I am here to announce that I FAILED my examination.
Known as EOS.
Also known as the biggest medical examination in IMU.

I did very badly in 1 of the papers, so badly beyond comprehension that it pulled my overall average grade from B to C minus. The passing grade is an overall C. Which means I've failed the whole thing even if I was alright in the other papers. So will be resitting for the whole thing on the 22nd and 23rd of June, 3 papers, 1 month from now.

I was quite sure that I would fail. Because I did so badly for that paper alone, I knew I needed a miracle to just pass. It didn't really sink in until I tore open that envelope and saw the grade for myself and the 'We regret to inform you that you have failed your EOS'. I also did something so stupid, that I can strangle myself right now because I did hundreds of past year questions (like literally, not joking) and neglected my notes, which I thought I was superhuman to memorise every single line (it is essential to memorise every single line) in 1 day.

I'm not kidding you.

I didn't wanna tell that to anyone in the beginning, because even I myself thought it was incredibly stupid. And so that I would feel a little better by pretending that I did study hard for this exam. Or should I add a complete retard for even attempting that. I was feeling extremely depressed and sad to the point of being emotionless after the exam because most of all, I didn't want to disappoint my parents, my family and also my friends who have been rooting for me all along.

All along, I thought I was going to handle the exam just fine. Despite spending lotsa time doing unnecessary stuff and watching loads of series and movies, I actually sat there for hours at end.. not studying, but doing the freaking past year questions. I was even so glad that I finished the whole pile because I was informed that past years DO come out alot in EOS.

Right after the disasterous 1st paper (which I did very badly on), I knew I was doomed. Because nothing came out. And this paper constitutes a chunk of percentage for my overall. After the whole EOS, I was told that past years almost NEVER repeats.

Too late for that.

I also thought that I should finish the past years because I didn't score for one of my Chemistry papers in A levels because I was so convinced that if I studied my notes, I could definitely answer the questions. WRONG. So convinced that history would repeat, I was determined to finished up the past years, and at the very end, I was left with 2 days to memorise my notes. After franctically reading up and jotting down short notes to memorise, I was left with 1 day.

And so I mugged the whole entire night without getting a wink of sleep. This is probably the most stressful as I can get. My blood pressure shot up so high that my left arm was numb the entire night. But I told myself that I had no time to stop or breakdown. And so around 3am, I decided to memorise the past year answers as a desperate attempt up til the time I entered the exam hall.

Day 1 over. I got back home, slept for 3 hours and continued stuffing facts into my brain. This time I got rid of the past years and memorised as much as I could from my notes. I was feeling so tired I had to take an hour nap, and woke up in cold sweat and heart palpitations. It took me half an hour to recover.

For a moment, I really wondered if I could have been having a heart attack.

And went back to my books up til the time I went for my Day 2 paper, which I did considerably much better than Day 1.

But sadly, not good enough to save myself.

There you go. I'm announcing this not to justify myself, but to accept the fact that I failed. And the stupid things I did that led to this humbling circumstance. A slap across my face for not being well prepared. A kick for thinking that past years are shortcuts in being a doctor. And so that nobody will ever attempt anything like that in the future EOS.

Before I got my results, I thought that I will not be able to face anyone, or tell anyone that I failed. I thought that I will shy away from the world because one of my worst fears is actually failure. But today God gave me the strength and courage to not only face it, but to declare that even if you fall, you can stand upright again. And that's why I'm announcing this to the whole world, because what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.

To all those who failed, don't ever give up. I'm sure we are all better than this. Everybody is cheering for you! And I can say this, because I failed as well and understand how you feel. So hang in there :)

For the only way to triumph over failure is to stand up tall. Do not let it beat you down. We will brave through this storm.

Someone once told me 2 years ago,

'You don't know how to play the game. In order to win, you must lose 1st. Learn from it and never make the same mistakes again. To help another human being, you must be a knowledgable doctor. Only then you can save someone's life.'

Thank you Mr Lim.

*****
You will not hear from me for a month until my exam is over. Keep cheering for us! And thank you for all your support.

=)

I Can Relate to Ghosts of Girlfriends Past

I’ve been looking forward to this movie for quite some time now. Woohoo!

Just recently, I've watched 'He's Just Not That Into You' and this upcoming movie is kinda like a sequel to that movie IMO. Also, I've been watching alot of 'How I Met Your Mother' which highlights the quest of this guy searching for THE ONE while in New York City with his buddies.

I mean, let's not talk bout movies, and just look around us. Many of us have different ideas on the question of love, dating and relationship. Some relationship's been serious at the word 'go'. Some falters after some time. Some progresses. Some's just puppy love. Some's love at first sight, yes?

At the end of it all, it's always a happy ending and a happily ever after. Some would have found that happy ending already. Some might have suffered from heart breaks. Some just have to wait for the right one to come by :) I believe in happy endings.

This story's about this character played by Matthew McConaughey who's a celebrity photographer. With looks, career and charm, he is one of the most available bachelors around with the ladies swarming from every corner. Which he greets with open hands.

Then he found himself falling in love. He fell deep for her. He freaked out, and did what he does best, leave in the morning back into his glamourous life. Until he met her again. He was brought back into the past, which brought him to realise how much he didn't want to lose her.

I'm a sucker for romance movies. So I'm sure I'm gonna find this movie a good watch :P

p/s: The title of this post has nothing to do with me btw. I want to get passes to the Special Screening, that's why :)

*****

My exam is in 5 days so I will be on a hiatus until it's over. Sorry for not replying your messages! :)

Good day!

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The Mysterious Ticking Noise

You may or may not know, but I used to spend hours on end throughout the night YouTubing. It was an addiction. Really.

It was neverending. The amount of videos I’ve watched, one after another. Absurd ones, Funny ones, Sick-in-the-head ones, Touching ones..

Constantly checking out the ‘Most popular Videos’ , ‘Most viewed Videos’ , ‘Featured Videos’  , ‘Related Videos’ . Constantly sending links to my friends and laughing our asses off. And another YouTube link-sharing spree would start from there.

‘YouTube is like an addiction’

I’d stopped this YouTube addiction when I moved back to Connaught when Uni started in August ‘08, due the freaggin’ slow connection. Which in return actually made me glued to the TeeVee instead. Oh, and also the many movies and series shared amongst my housemates.

Now that I’m back in Kajang. There are other things that actually got me a lil caught up. Like Plurking.

Plurk is somewhat like Twitter + MSN. The constant replying keeps you so caught up that without realising, you might be on it for hours. It’s really like keeping up with 10 MSN conversations at 1 go.

Now you know what I’ve been doing when I’m supposed to be studying.

Another thing that I’ve been gushing about is this Mixpod. Somewhat like Imeem. But the best part is, Mixpod actually imports audio clips from other sharing sites like YouTube. So you can find almost anything there and add it into your playlist.

Oo! Not only that, it loads extremely fast even with my lousy connection, with no glitches (except if you are loading other big sites as well). Now I don’t even need to download anymore, just click on play, and it plays the whole night through.

You see, it has gone a full circle. Now Mixpod has brought me to realise again the wonders of YouTube that I was once intrigued about.

There you go! My bro and I used to sing this aloud everyday at home. If it harbors the same effect on you, I guarantee you, the song will be playing in your head for days.

Good day!

p/s: I’ll be doing less of innit postings now :)

Spork

Behold! The Almighty Spork!

LOL